Another good day so far. Had a unit search, they did not completely fuck up all our shit like they do to a lot of the other girls.

Doing crosswords, me and the girls.

Gonna’ shower, wash hair. According to C I’m not washing my hair enough.

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I had a hard time getting to sleep last night. It was weird. I wasn’t ruminating about one particular thing, as would normally be the case. I was flooded with so many different memories about things I thought I’d never think about again. Maybe I’m having a “healing crisis.”

Alright, so me and J are back on. She took my fuckin’ crossword though. She doesn’t know better so I’ll let it slide. At least we have something we can do together because I don’t want her touching my cards.

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It’s almost 3:00, thought I should check in. Things have really settled down around here, for the moment, and that’s all I’m worried about, is this moment. A left so M’s best friend is gone so her and I have been playing a lot of cards. We get to go out to the sports field today. Had yoga yesterday, it was a very good session. I’m not having much trouble filling my time. I must have fallen asleep early last night as I woke up at 6:10. I feel a bit tired but I feel more prepared, mentally and physically, for work in the kitchen.

Just finished supper. Had a small nap from about 2:45 to 3:10. That is only a bit later than the time I will be able to nap once I begin working in the kitchen.

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Just checking in. It’s been an uneventful day. the moon is waning and so is the drama. Actually, the drama stayed in her room all day.

I’m excited about the sweat lodge. I hope it doesn’t get cancelled again. I heard it’s once a month, so it should happen the week of June 10th, what would be Gramma and Grampa’s 68th wedding anniversary. (Ceremony!) I’m thinking, as I write this, that I won’t be going to the sweat lodge looking for answers. As Tammy said, it is a rebirth. I want to live in the moment so I am just going to go there, experience it, and carry on living my life, with a new refreshed outlook.

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